Went to change my braces yesterday and now the wiring is so much thicker! :(
Then I went to taka to find marie to wrap my present.
She sure hasn't changed since the last time I met her.
I had to wait like nearly an hour plus to two to finally get it wrap cause she had customers. (I'm just too lazy to wrap)
Then I took the MRT home and I was praying the whole way that it won't breakdown and luckily it didn't then I quickly changed to the NE line to Serangoon, phew!
And tada! I was back home with a BIG present for you. (:

Hmm, I'm guessing this will be my last present for you and I won't be able to see you anymore cause I won't have anymore "excuses" to meet you...

I miss scratching your head like a little kitten and smelling your scented hair.

Haha ok stop thinking!

Time to do work!

This is my little cozy shell that no one reads.
I'm in contention. (:

Oh by the way...
I'M GOING GENTING WITH THE POROROS FOR NEW YEAR'S COUNTDOWN! ^_^

What a beautiful song :)
I'm gonna learn it!

It's 4am now and I'm still not sleeping.

I recall the time when you worried for me whenever I played soccer in the rain and asked me to be careful. And when I listen to you, you'll be like "good boy ^^" and that always made me happy!

The worst incident was when I dislocated my shoulder and made you worry, I'm so sorry about that :( When you called me when I was in the ambulance, I felt so much more calm you know?

Hahah we were so farny! (:

I guess you sure did had fun at USS today ya? :)
Gahhh, how I wish I could go too T_T

OK TIME TO SLEEP NOW!
GOODNIGHT!

Today you went off to sentosa to stay! how awesome is that? :D
I wish I could stay in a hotel too, it's been so long since I last smelled the hotel room, it always makes me sleepy...

I suddenly remembered the time when you went batam ( or pulau ubin i forgot heh!) for a family holiday too!
I was uber sad cause I thought I couldn't see you for the next whole weekend! :(
Then you made me a montage of you and I instantly made it my phone's wallpaper! hahah
The times when you skyped me while in your hotel room eating rubbish was funny too! :)

OK it's 3am in the morning, I should be sleeping now cause it's getting colder and colder! brrrr....

I'm glad no one reads this blog cause it's utterly embarrassing for them to know how weird I truly am.
Goodnight! (to myself hahaha)

Today you gave me a blue hoodie, my favourite colour. (:
I'm wearing it now as I'm typing this cause it's cold in here!
And you did a very colourful cute birthday card for me, when I read it I felt this warm, fuzzy and nostalgic feeling.
Sorry if I didn't seem as enthusiastic as I should be because I'm still feeling sick, it's been nearly 1 week already. :/
But I have to admit, you looked beautifully cute today! (:

I was happy that I got a hug from you :)
But it was temporary.
Oh well, I shall burn away these feelings out on soccer later!
Talking about soccer, I suddenly had this reminder of you.
Remember there was a night when I just finished playing and you called me saying you missed me and you were feeling sleepy?
And that I said the 3 words in front of my friends to you on the phone and it made you super happy?? :)
It gave me more reasons to love you.

OK TIME TO DO MY WORK!

The only people I would love tickling would be babies and you. (:
Haha gah I miss tickling the hell outta you, making you laugh like you've never laughed before!
I remembered the first time you shaved my legs too!
gosh i felt so pretty when you shaved all those hair off! ^^ HAHAHA NO LA NO LA! OMG I SOUNDED SO GAY!
I happened to remember our little outing we had one night when we went to eat ba ku teh and shared our ice cream together, best feeling evar! :D
It wasn't that of a grand thing for me to do, but every moment was enjoyed! especially seeing you happily eating was such an enjoyable moment for me. (:
It's been awhile, it's been awhile... maybe I shall go back there one day and eat again, but I guess it would be an alone thing for me now.

Actually there was one real reason why I wasn't able to let you go,
and that was because we've both seen each other completely, physically and mentally.
And I'm a conservative person and I would never go around playing with other people.
THAT is why I wasn't able to let you go.

Hmm, I am one weird guy, really.
Whenever I tell my friends about my situation, they always say, "wah you so nice, so rare to find such a good bf." but really, how can I even consider myself good if I can let you slip through my fingers?

Maybe God just wants me to take this time to realize and understand that being Mr.Nice isn't all that good in a relationship.
There's always a need of a pinch of bad boy attitude in a relationship to balance things out.
And so I did, I went to the club last friday for the first time.
Everyone was so pumped up to go except for me.
Haha ok I shall continue this clubbing post on my next post...

I just watched a proposal video done by a singaporean guy and I must say he sure did have the balls to do so.
The funny thing about watching it was that the moment he talked about first dates, these vague memories started coming back and I didn't realize that I was tearing up until my vision went blurry.
It sucks to have a soft heart, I always tear up easily and I can't control it.
Call me a loser or a wimp but I'm human, I have feelings.
I always wanted to do such things for a girl. To show her that I truly love her and I would love to sing a song for her even though my voice sucks.
Shy I may be but I'd be willing to do such things in the name of love.
BUT nevermind la, at least I still got my Monroe to give my love to her! :D
Oh yes! I've been playing 2 songs lately too, Favorite Girl by The Icarus Account and Marry Me by Train!
Gosh they're so fun to play!
And yes! I finally mastered 3 finger plucking! ^^
I need to learn 4 finger soon, ring finger, you're up!

Dear you,

It's been a months plus two since our break up.

I've been feeling much better now. So much better than the first day when I fell so badly.

Looking back now, it's been quite a ride I had.

I still have these pieces of memories still left in me that I have yet to forget. Actually, I can't bare to forget them.

Remember how I met you for the first time during the orientation camp?

I was as shy as a mouse and you were quiet too.

But I told myself I had to open myself up to people around me otherwise there was no point being a OGL in the first place.

And so I did, I talked to everyone in your group including you and you were the most interesting person to talk to amongst your group.

And from then on, we talked and talked for like forever and in no time, we became close friends! :D

Do you know you were the one who taught me how to hug??

Haha, funny isn't it? I've never really hugged anyone in my life until you asked for a hug that night.

I was very shy about it, totally clueless on hugging and felt awkward.

Every time when I hugged you, I felt this warm fuzzy sensation and it always made me smile.

Haha remember how we like to call our hugs like bear hugs or side hugs?

Oh yes! and I remembered how foolish I was one night when you told me you were on the bus already and I was just walking out of school then I went, "OK! I SHALL RUN TO THE NEXT BUS STOP TO GET ON THE SAME BUS AS YOU!!!"

Then you asked me to not run cause at that time, my ankle was still like a bun hahaha!

It was so slippery that night too and I was wearing slippers! I had to run through the muddy grass to take the shortcut hahaha but it was all worth it! :)

Then when I got on the bus, you were so upset and worried for me hahaha and I guess I haven't told you yet but you looked absolutely cute when you were angry with me :x haha and you kept showing me the >:( face hahaha! I loved how you cared for me even in the angriest way possible :)

And I was randomly thinking the past few days about what was your most cutest phrase you ever said to me and I have concluded with... *drum rolls* "COME HERE! ^^" hahahaha I have no idea why it sounds cute but whenever you say that, I cannot control my body, it will like automatically run to you! :O

Haha oh yes! and I also loved how you always asked me to piggyback ride you around my house! :p haha it was super lazy of you but I love to carry you around if you didn't know! :)

Haha those were the days I guess, now you're just so busy...

Did you know that it was because of you that I manage to pull through my year2sem2? :)

Even though I skipped classes or took time off to spend with you, I kinda believe it was all worth it because after working for long hours, I would always look forward to meeting you to spend my time de-stressing and it helped me a lot! :D

Alright I shall stop here for now! I shall pen my thoughts down once in awhile, guess it does help relieve. (:

Goodnight,

Hoho

I hope you don't read me as the person of the past.

I've pretty much moved on already.

But I decided to leave that little bit of me stashed at the back of my mind.

Only when you have decided to be ready, I would take them back out. (:

It's funny how I always look back to this video once in awhile to remind myself that the true happiness comes from the simple pleasures in life.

Seeing this video makes my happy because it shows me who you truly were.

Goodnight world. (:

Another day, another challenge.

A new beginning. A new fresh start to find you back. (:

I shall end it off with this.

It's been nearly 2 weeks but this feeling seem to have not disappeared. I really do miss you a lot, the old you. ):

I've been trying very hard to forget but every place I go just keeps reminding me of you.

You may not even be reading this now I know but it's all the better for you because I wouldn't want you to think back of all these.

You are very busy now and I can see that.

But I hope that once this is all over, we could slowly find ourselves back.

I'm holding on because I'm stubborn in love. I will love you till you come back to me one day.

That day when you broke me apart was not the end of this love at all. It just broke out into a new fresh beginning for me.

The end was only a new beginning for me to wake me up from my paranoia and to find myself back to get you back!

I believe that there's still a part of you that still holds on to your old self and it's quietly lingering in your troubled soul.

"Say goodnight, our first goodbye. I've only for forever and forever is fine."

Please don't read this, Joanne.

Can someone tell me?!

Why am I so crazy over you??

I don't know whether you can see how much pain I'm feeling now...

You're always being so happy with your friends but I'm like a prick in your skin.

Where have all the silly questions and humorous laughter been?

In the first place, why am I like that? :(

Guess I just need to keep swallowing and swallowing until things go back to what they were...

School's starting tomorrow and I'm feeling like crap.

I'm having a block nose and difficulty breathing, haiii.

I'm so worn out from being lazy.

I hope this semester will get me kicking and working.

and...

no more roller coaster rides please. (:

Now I know what it feels to be lonelier than lonely.

Sucks.

I've been too alone too much.

Someone help me.

Sure I know it's tough and scary,
but remember that I'm always right here for you...
even if it means for me to assure you a thousand times, I would..
like how The Beatles would sing it,
I wanna hold your hand :)