Sometimes when I'm home and she's out.
I miss her a lot.
Vice versa, I believe.
But... it's okay! Everyone needs their own personal space too. (:

I had the scariest and saddest of dreams last night. I dreamt that I lost everyone, even you.
My heart feels heavy now...

If only I could get your comfort from you now.

AR LOW JOJO!

IF YOU'RE READING THIS, PLEASE SMS ME! :D

(I wanna see how long you take to read this hahaha)

hahaha these past few days has been one of the best times I've spent with you.

Though they were short, but it was every minute well spent.

I know sometimes you're sad and thinking that I don't care about you anymore but I want you to know that you're always on my mind.

It always brings me joy to see you happy and seeing you happy makes me happy too!

Especially when you message me that I'm cute and bla bla bla hahaha you know la! ><

Anywho!

Thank you for being my kai xing guo! ^^

So you must stay CUTE and stay PRETTY ya?!

You must say YES (with the caps!) when you sms me so I know what you're talking about!

OKAY GOT TO GO NAOOO cause I need to bathe and call you!

you are one helluva emotional roller coaster ride but I can tell you it it's hard for me to give up taking that ride all the way through.

i miss hearing your voice but you're always tired.

it's 5 in the morning now, I wish I could hug you and have you sleep in my arms.

I'm not going to let this blog die, it did me well during my worst days, I shall repay it by blogging more often. (:

It's been months, seems like this soft heart of mine just doesn't want to let you go huh?

I'm tired of pulling it away from you, cause every time I pull it away, it quietly sneaks back to find you.

I miss hugs.

Those that warm the heart.

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love.

I'll pick you up when you're getting down.

And out of all these things I've done,

I think I love you better now.

try smiling with a broken heart.

These fake smiles...

When can I ever smile truthfully?

I dream of you sometimes.

Dreaming of the memories we had.

I hate you for loving me so much, it made me love you so much too you know? :'(

Losing you left a big gap in my heart and even though it has healed, the scars are still there.

I really hate this feeling of a heavy heart. ):

If only someone could come and heal it...

You always asked me in the past why I would send you home no matter how late the time is, it's because seeing you makes me smile and recharges me spiritually and puts a smile to my heart.

I remembered how warm it felt to call you to wake you up and hear your morning voice while I'm on the bus to school.

The long hours we stayed up on the webcams to see each other's dull faces.

Memories that I wish I could relive again.

Gummy bear?

Slippin' away.

I miss talking my mind out to you, now everything is so kept up in my mind I don't know who I can tell to..

what's the one thing I would do if I could turn time back?

loved you less, yes, less.

because it showed me that loving you too much fell into my demise.

I guess I'm just soft hearted by nature.

I miss hugging you, my pillow is my substitute for you but it's never enough cause you feel so much warmer and softer with a beating heart and a scent that brings me into slumber sleep almost in an instant everytime.

I'm tired and all drained out.

I need that adrenaline of motivation and support from that someone I once had.

She.

It's so hard to forget you, so bloody hard.

I guess the only way for me now is to just accept it, accept these memories.

Bear the pains and happiness.

Live with it, be one with it.